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jongdae ah... there's lots of things i want to say to you, but as with anything else, i find myself stuck with how to really express it properly. you know this too well about me by now, don't you? kk i'll bank on that to save me from embarrassment. please forgive my lack of eloquence. half the time, i know my replies are quiet and short, but it isn't because i have nothing to say. it's because it's all in my head. i suppose it's a bit easier to write it out here, then to try and say it out loud, when we're laying together or on the phone late at night. i don't have to say much, though, right? you must know how i feel. i fall back on your wit and sharpness to pick up on that sort of thing so that i don't need to venture too far out of my comfort zone and stretch myself more than what i find nomally comfortable. for most anyone else, i'd simply refuse. there are a lot of things that i excuse when it comes to you, though... you make me want to push myself into areas i otherwise would ignore. it isn't just because you can be bright and positive and encouraging. a lot of that feeling just comes from the energy you radiate, something that's hard to see of most people unless you either spend a lot of time with them, or quietly stand by their side. i've discovered the best of both worlds, i suppose. i just want you to know that i think a lot of you. that i want to try new things and enhance who i am because of how you see me, and how you make me and lots of other people feel. you're very touching, even if you doubt that sometimes. it can be hard to see, but that's what my eyes are for, now. just trust and lean on me sometimes. i'm the perfect height for you. whatever comes to us, to me, to you... let's make sure we're facing it together, okay? i'm hoping that even if i struggle to express it most of the time, when we clasp hands together, you'll feel how strong you make my heartbeat. right there with you is where i want to be. i've confessed something similar but you know how much this means, right? that this is different? that i really want you to know? aish. yeah, i'm blushing. i feel it everywhere. love, kyungsoo ah |